The nightmares night

These cards belong to a beautiful deck named "The Tarot of the Angels", published by the italian publishing house Lo Scarabeo in 2007 with the collaboration of the writer and esotericist Giordano Berti and the artist Arturo Picca.

I want to tell you two emblematic episodes about my first experiences with these Tarots and which have these two cards as protagonists. These are small episodes that may seem rather banal and perhaps obvious, especially for those who are more experienced and have been reading the Tarot for a long time; for me instead it was a very strong and very clear message about their potential, a warning not to be underestimated. As this is strictly private life, I will naturally remain vague, without going into details, but this does not affect the substance of the conclusions.

I had recently bought this deck that immediately bewitched me for its rich and meaningful images. After having purified them, I decided, to transmit some of my energies to them, and therefore make them more mine, more responsive to my vibrations, to take them to bed, to sleep one night with the deck next to me, close to my chest, to my heart in particular.

I must first say that I was going through a rather tormented period for various reasons, I was unsure how to proceed and I had a thousand fears, but I always slept well. That night, however, I had restless sleeps, and woke up from two consecutive nightmares. Two dreams in which I had to face rather heavy hostile situations, this generated anxiety, although I still knew I had some weapons that would allow me to defend myself, therefore in the end these situations could not have hurt me much, but still generated a lot of anxiety and worries.

In the morning, before I even got out of bed, I immediately took the Tarot deck and mixed it well, I fanned as usual, then I took out a random card, to probe the energies of the day, and with my great surprise came out that 9 of swords that perfectly described the situation lived in dreams, exactly that nightmare in which a heavily hostile situation (the black demon) loomed over me, but a wall of swords (my secret weapons) was there to protect me, so I had nothing to fear: the black demon could not have done me any harm !

It seemed incredible to me how this card had "read inside" me perfectly, and had perfectly summarized the whole situation in this symbolic image, an image perfectly coherent in all respects with my inner experience, all the emotional involvement that I was living in my mind, it appeared here perfectly condensed into a single image!

A little disconcerted by this, I put the card back into the deck, and almost automatically, without even thinking about it, perhaps out of disbelief, I shuffled the deck, fanned again, and then again randomly drawn another card: incredibly, the new card that came out was exactly the same ...! How two were the nightmares, or as if to say "do you trust me, or not ?" ... What else to add ?

Always in consideration of the particular period I was living, I often felt completely alone, surrounded by people who did not think like me, surrounded by hostile energies even if tacit and undeclared, other times instead openly declared: in the family, at work, in the friendships, in daily life, as if I had everyone against, and I had to defend my reasons with the sword or better still, defend my being.

It was mainly a question of ideas and life choices, I was, and still am, convinced of my ideas but I was not sure if I could had had the strength to defend indefinitely. Well, even on these occasions of loneliness and despair, the cards read me perfectly inside, transmitting at the same time an image of strength and hope. On two occasions, when I was overwhelmed by these moods, the card that came out of the deck was that beautiful Tower, on which a luminous character standing on a tower, which perhaps is crumbling under his feet, tries to defend himself by a horde of hostile beings flying around him. These beings have semblance and wings like angels, but they are dark, and they are not really beings of light.

Also in this case, the cards revealed to me their great ability to perfectly read and interpret my most intimate and secret moods, and by virtue of their extraordinary ability, I was able to trust them , and to make mine the message they transmitted to me. Even beyond the canonical interpretations of the cards themselves, I let myself be guided and influenced only by the strength of their images and what they evoked me. I identified myself perfectly with that character above the Tower, it was me, and I was experiencing exactly that same situation !

To tell the truth, looking at this last card, I think it can perfectly represent not only and not so much the present moment, but rather my whole past life and, from the way things are going, I also think about the future life. Yes, because taking stock of all the events, my life has always been a solitary fight against everything and everyone, to keep myself faithful to my ideas and my feelings, and I am here, after many years, always in the same situation. I could make this card the herald of my life !

In this particular period, they have been a comfort and a guide to me, I can only thank them, and every time I regard these two images, I feel a great emotion and a great respect, and they are loaded with new meanings.